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Resources
Finding Providers
Therapists Directory:
EMDR Therapists Directory:
EMDRIA (Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing International Association)
Lower Fee Providers Directory:
Emergency Helplines
Emergency number (US): 911
Suicide and Crisis Lifeline (US): 988
National Suicide Hotline (US): 800-273-8255
Video Resources
The following two videos explain how EMDR works:
This video explains how EMDR works (3min)
This video explains how EMDR processes trauma (14 min)
Links to self-administered quizzes and assessments
Books
Here are some books that may be useful to your recovery journey.